melissa (:

2011-12-28T02:44:00.003+08:00

If i gave up on you, i'll be giving up on love forever.
I can't take another break up.
If i have you, u'll be my last,
I can't take another of it.
And if u would, read my twitter.
My wish of us is just there.

And if u would, give me an answer.
Cause i dunno how i pulled myself across this time.

I might just disappear the next.
Please, im begging you.

Photo Post

2011-12-15T00:25:00.004+08:00

Hair colour:Clothes i bought with my last pay:Malaysia GLMMalaysiaGLMWSTP & GLM

2011-12-14T23:28:00.003+08:00

Well, coming back to this old blog here.
Feels different! hahahaha! :D
Since everything have been moved there, somehow,
There's stilll all the memories here i cant bear to delete.
And they're really the only things i left here since my comp reformatted twice.
And well...

School, hasnt been really good or what.
The usual stuff where im being ignored sometimes and being left out.
Not being cared for or heard when all i wanted was to share some stuff and all. ):

Family, well, dont have much to say...
Mum's been spoiling me with a hair dye, and my bro?
Second bro's alright. but i cant get along with my elder bro anymore.
Sick and tired of his ways and doings, thinking he's right all the time?

Used to respect him alot. Now? I dunno how u call it, im just seeing him as another person living
in the same house as i am. Cant be bothered anyway.
Since he only wronged me and misjudge me?
Then fine, i'll just speak with my actions and nothing else.
Prove how wrong he is.
Why?
Cause i fucking had enough of him judging me all the time.
So i'll just shut up and do my things while he can just continue wronging me in his mind.
I dont care anymore.

Life hasnt been great but it's passable.
Sides from the occasional emo times or
down times, i guess i still have been holding on and keep moving
Though some stuff i cant put down no matter what, i'll let it stay until it decides to move on and leave me behind.
Even when that happens, i guess it's okaye.
Im only receiving what i deserved right?

If im allowed and taken in, then i really would treasure every single thing im gonna have.

And aside from that, i really cant stand it when people goes all taking advantage of other people or like, making use of that they have.

Cause for me, i think ive lost quite a lot?
And well, to me now im just gonna treasure what i have, even when im not too sure i have it.

And im just hoping tmr's camp's gonna be a good one.
Like, wont be ignored or what,
Or else i guess im really gonna have enough of it and walk away.
That's what i really hate about poly.
And even my classmates ask me what happened.
How the hell am i suppose to reply them?
I just kept quiet and smile.
Sighhhhh~

Alright, guess that's all for now. (:
CYA LOVELIES... If there's any.

2011-09-06T03:11:00.002+08:00

I'm hiding 1 last thing from u.

1 which u would never have thought of.

2011-09-06T02:43:00.001+08:00

Really dunno what to do now,
feel so lost and off.
whenever i look or think of u,
i get this weird feeling all over my body.
Dunno how i should react,
dunno whether i should cry or be angry.
I just feel that im gonna faint soon.

Now, i just wished i died, just to see ur reaction after that.
I dunno. I really dunno.

2011-08-10T02:55:00.003+08:00

Brian's birthday!

2011-07-10T03:02:00.005+08:00

Ive been hooked on maple lately,
not too much but i'd say it's just fine.
here's some pics!
and the fella inside with me is non other than qinnie! ^^
and yes im showing off my times. xD HAHAHAHA!
okaye okaye goodnight! ^^ do visit my tumblr!
im more active there! ^^

2011-06-21T01:12:00.002+08:00

I still Love Blogger. (:
Tumblr just's to reblog those really nice photos around.
Meanings and stuff.
I'll have a proper update abut my recent stuff soon. (:

And honestly, today wasnt fine at all.
I was down in the dumps,
feeling insecure and had been crying it all out.
Guess my confidence hit rock's bottom just now.
I hope i'm feeling better, but not faking it.

2011-06-20T23:19:00.001+08:00

Thinking of removing this blog,
But i loved the memories...

2011-06-20T19:20:00.000+08:00

Blogger doesnt seem to work.

2011-06-16T04:47:00.002+08:00

Even if no one else reads or blog, i'll be the only one reading it
EVERYDAY! :D
Yes i mean it.
To: C, J, E, K, S.

2011-06-04T01:07:00.002+08:00

This is part of my homework this week. (:
Im hoping to get an A for this too,
And it's also part of what i took the webcam pic from last week. (:

2011-06-04T00:48:00.002+08:00

Now, for a proper post!
Hey guys! :D
Yes i missed u so,
missed blogging and going through the same process everytime.
Hahahaha! Bump into a couple of u guys this week,
which really made my day~
And yeap, this week was real hectic!
TWO DAYS in a row i only slept for 2 hours,
and today my body broke down by having headaches
which made me sleep past dinner and not being able to wake up.
LOL! but i did ate, at like, 9.30?
:D and my fave BARCHOR MEE WAS SERVED! xD
Anyways,
Well, i realised that though my homework's always so crazy,
asking for so many things and causing all the 2hour-night sleep,
i really do enjoy going to school and studying this. (:
Somehow, i feel that im really doing what i wan, a design course.
something which im not familiar in but could still do fairly well,
and i guess i just got my other A for LDS! :D
I think i'll upload some pictures in the next post! (:
And well, for friends,
lately ive realised that we have loads of problems with a couple
of our classmates,
some being a bitch while others are just plain rude and selfish,
And well, despite all that,
at least i have my own clique hang out with and gossip like no one's business,
so im really glad their there for me when i needed them,
making me smile each day, and making me enjoy life at school.
but i must apologised for this hot tempered me who goes crazy
due to pressure and lack of sleep.

Well, old cliquey,
yes i miss the hell out of u guys,
always thinking about how we used to laugh and attract attention.
though there are issues here and there,
that doesnt really matter when we hang out with each other.
well, somehow i feel drifted,
cause i never met up with u guys ever since poly started,
but im thankful that u guys were there during sec school.
(; thank you for making me fart non stop thanks to laughing,
u guys are very much appreciated. (:
Please do well in poly,
please dont miss each other too much.
please take good care of yourselves,
and please update ur blog for me to read and know what's
going on in ur life these days. (:
OKAYE I MISS TOH QIN XIAN LIKE MAD I CAN JUST CLING ONTO HIM
TOMORROW AND NO LET HIM GO HOME! ^^
SET! I WILL DO THAT TMR!
OHHHH! And i realised my bad word habit is coming back...
SCREWWWWW YOUUUU MEEEELLLLL!!!!!!
STOP SAYING FUCK U ALL THE TIME OKAYE!
U MUST BE POISE THOUGH URE BARELY THERE!
Okaye. (: Hope to cya soon!
:D enjoy the holidays!!! <3

2011-06-04T00:31:00.007+08:00

Indra:
The most AwesomePerdulsome friend u could ever have.
Sorry for camwhoring during GenEd,
And i love my purple lips! \m/

2011-05-29T02:33:00.001+08:00

Forget, about ME.
Just FORGET.
I dont wanna fucking care anymore.
wash my hands all u all,
dont call, dont text, dont bother being nice to me.
So sick and tired of all the plastic faces.

2011-05-25T03:10:00.002+08:00

NOW: 3:12am
Doing homework but got bored.

Haha! (: CYA!

2011-05-25T02:46:00.003+08:00

Realised that my life have somehow been wasted for homework,
And i just stopped my super power productivity for computer.
xD i guess technology really kills brain cells somehow yeah? (:
anyways, been realising things lately,
being left out and all. From the old and the new.
Somehow realise that, u know,
i dont fit in perfectly but im just a piece there to
fill in another gap in between. group within group,
i KNOW im not part of the east gang, and honestly,
i think she's just drifting away from us.
Somehow find it really annoying, but well, if she's fine with it,
then i shant say anything. it's her decision anyways, not mine!

Got an A+ finally for LDS,
was pretty happy cause it meant my only 1 hour of sleep did paid off!
currently doing my 3rd ICE, until my brain died
since i turned the comp on.
im hoping to get another A+,
but i guess i'll just have to put in effort and show that i really
wanted it badly cause though there's only 40 people in my course,
competition's tough! Well, between all the As and A+s. LOL!

well, i felt that no one's really reading my blog now,
and like, no one really cares how my life is going anymore,
but i guess i'll just blog for the sake of myself,
being able to express myself. :/
okaye okaye. i'll concentrate now.
my mood just went down thinking no one's reading.
bye~ ):

2011-05-21T01:48:00.001+08:00

THANK YOU. (:

2011-05-15T03:49:00.002+08:00

I feel so drifted.
From my old friends, from my old life.

Well, honestly this birthday,
Im not expecting much from anyone.
Though Bf's really hyped up and ready,
I feel that I just wan a simple night with him,
and nobody else just like one year ago.
I dont need some big celebration,I dont need to be in the centre of attention.
I just wanna be with the one I loved most in my life,
Toh Qin Xian
To be able to hold him,
see him,
touch him,
hug him,
kiss him
and love him.
It's all I wanna do to get away from reality for awhile. (:
Haha, seems silly, but i missed him alot since school started..
Barely get to see him,
but well, we tried.
And yeah it's hard but we understand.
That's why. (;

The Someone who never never failed to be there for me.
Thank u dear, really... (; *tears

2011-05-15T00:54:00.002+08:00

Cause i wasnt important to u anymore.
that's why.

2011-05-11T23:54:00.004+08:00

Life may not be what u wanted it to be.
Since u cant change it, all u
gotta do is accept it with a light heart,
and learn how to turn it around.
Maybe sometimes u'll think, WHY THE HELL AM I HERE!
Though u may regret, u'll eventually find out why.
So girl, no stress.
Take it all in and breathe, u'll learn to see a different world altogether.
And just remember one thing, it's not all about u,
it's also about the
people around u that u'll be affecting each day.
Sometimes u'll feel ur
presence isnt important,
But u'll never know really how much uve affected
me.
Made me think, and open my eyes.
Im not saying cause im good at
this,
it's cause i realised it's something we'll all go through,
just
that sometimes we dont realise it.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JAY!
Love u forever and ever,
and i thank god u existed to be my friend, impact my life, lend me a listening ear,
and made me think logically. (:
All the best, Mel.

2011-05-08T03:03:00.003+08:00

Hey guys,
sorry for not updating..
been really busy with homeworks and everything
and today i suddenly feel a lost for my homework.
cause i dont have any idea how my work should be like,
so i guess i'll leave it and be unassure. (:
so im gonna talking about my week.
This week was really fun,
after handing up my first assignments, and well,
getting things done well and good..
just that i broke down these days,
just cried for what ive lost and how tired i am..
): ahh i guess it's okaye to cry?
At least my heart get's some stuff lifted off.
Well, now im sitting on my bed,
thinking about loads of stuff,
mainly about clique
then bf, poly clique,
homework, mummy, politics.
LOL! i dunno why but my brian works weirdly!
please forgive moi!
LOL! and yes i know my blog's getting really boring,
cause i dun have any photos to post and all. ):
sorry guys,
well sometimes i feel that im trying,
sometimes i just feel like im giving up.
i wanna tell u guys, dun buy me anything please,
cause i wont have the money to buy back presents for u.
really really. i still owe u presents from last year!
And homework's been eating up all the damn money i saved,
and i really miss working. ):
i wanna earn money so i can shop and give gifts,
stop taking money from mummy. ):
i really wanna stop that.
wanna work but i dun have the time to.
somehow life just starts to get worse financially for me and my family
when poly starts...
haix. okaye.
i'll stop abruptly.
sorry guys, i really have no mood... ):
Love ya, cya.

2011-05-04T04:14:00.001+08:00

'Ve been busy! @_@

2011-05-01T22:13:00.000+08:00

Sorry guys, i didnt enjoyed it as much as u did.

2011-04-27T01:02:00.005+08:00

Family BBQ:Drawings from sentosa:Homework from last weekHomework for this week:Currently drawing this! :

2011-04-27T00:48:00.003+08:00

AIYEE!!!!
SORRY PEOPLE! ):
I guess i wont be blogging that often anymore. ):
Sadly, ive been busy with everything!
Bf, friends, family, school, homeworks..
seems never ending but at least i know that im making
full use of my time.. (: and living to the fullest.
So well, BBQ with cliquey was really fun,
felt really good with u guys and thanks alot for organising it. (:
Made me feel so good and comfy with u guys.. (;
And well, been missing dear badly cause these days,
i really dont get to see him since school started for the both
of us, and well, our timetable clashes all the time.. ):
so that kinda sucked badly.. ):
School, homework starts coming in and alot, even now,
i havent completed wad i wanted to do.. so i guess im gonna hurry up..
and as usual, pictures will be in the next post. (:
U'll see wad i really did as homework..
and yeah, loving who im hanging out with now,
they never fail to make me smile.
though i'll never feel as comfortable,
at least i get to laugh along with them.. (:
still a tiny bit of awkwardness, but i know,
they'll never replace old cliquey. (: Thanks guys~
Family, i tried to go as many gatherings there are,
and honestly im glad i did.. (:
Was fun but mainly get together with my cousins and siblings. (:
LOL! doesnt sound much fun but it means alot to me..
And the rest of the time goes to school~ (:
So well guys, though we wont be able to meet up as much,
i hope u guys are living your life to the fullest,
appreciating and doing everything u can.
Hope to see u soon, and forge on! (:
Cya soon!

2011-04-20T00:56:00.002+08:00

I gotta say...
TODAY WAS FREAKING FUN AS A CLASS! :DDDD
Okaye so today, i reached school at 9am rather than 930am to meet
Indra, meaning, im one hour early for class.
So i went to mac and ate my burger like a loner until he came..
met Renee and left for class.
So we were too early and i went to the toilet cause my stomach wasnt feeling
toooooo good. ): and i poo-ed for a long time. LOL!
So it was Gen-ed, and we sat in a circle,
wrote our names on different coloured post-its and intro ourselves
while we answered a question given by our CUTESY lecturer, Ms Kim!
Qsn: Would u rather choose Peace or Freedom,
Would u rather be Honest but poor or Dishonest but rich,
Would u rather eat a friend or die starving.
Qsn which makes us think,
and honestly some people in my class just thinks stupidly. SERIOUSLY.
Oh and we're all from different course!
Then we got separated into our colours and we have to make a speech of 1min
on the different type of qsn she asked us, and make our point.
So the Whites got to be the judges and they'll give marks to the ones
they like most. (: LOL!
1. Is a casino good or bad for singapore?
2. Jack Neo: A manipulator or victim of media?
3. Young or Old?
4. Shark fin soup?
aiya i cut the quesions short larhs. xD but ya, it gets us thinking
and basically Gen-Ed is about making us having our own opinions and
gets us thinking about world issues. :D
And my group lost by 1 point but we still get the prize. xD
Met more peeps, :/ mostly guys cause my group all guy,
and met one who judges peeps. ): nvm larhs. he's alright. LOL!

Then after gen-ed, we went to meet up with like, 1/2 of 02?
and uh, went to vivo for lunch then met the rest of the class and 01
and off to sentosa! (:
travelled by tram to the beach then got briefed and starting sketching.
so i picked a spot on a bent coconut tree,
and well, (: started sketching the side of the Siloso Sculpture,
then i realized, oh great, it's too bloody small!!!
So i added one tree and then we gathered back to stop and start playing~
So we didnt really split properly but ya, played captain's ball,
01 vs 02, and ya it's DAMN HIONG! okaye larhs, not too hiong but HIONG!
and guys started stripping and all. LOL!
but sand just keep getting into my shoes, and nothing too attractive. LOL!
Then well, ended the game but 01 still won.. (:
It's okaye cause it's only a game, and after that,
I gave up and rested while the guys continue playing volleyball
with Ms Emily. (: hahahahas, she's also super cute. xD
Then gathered once more after that and many went home,
except the guys (not all) and 3 girls,
so the 3 of us just played blind volleyball, LOL!
and some random stranger joined us but it was okaye. (:
Then after that we took the tram back to Sentosa,
gossip here and there a lil (YES A LIL) with Brian,
then trained back to amk with Ben.. LOL!
Yeah.. was a really great day.
and i added another tree to my drawing block,
then realized my block is smaller than other people. T_T
YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA. so i have to tell me teacher sorry.
): haix! okaye! cya PEEPS!
Yeah, am enjoying school, the things we do.. (:
It's fun! :D
But i miss dear damn badly larhs! ):
And im going to school tmr to support SYF! (:
JIAYOUS JUNIORS!! (:
And well, all the best to u guys too! (:
Miss ya clique! (: And ya, my class doesnt REALLY have cliques. :/
Maybe the fun-lovers, the sit outs and the uh.. :/ partial fun?
LOL!!! But ya, we try remaining and being a class as much as possible.
); cause well, 40 peeps it's hard to stick tgt. :/
okaye!
will upload pic of my drawings soon. :/
didnt want it to go on facebook. :/
CYA SOON BF AND CLIQUE! :D

2011-04-18T08:09:00.002+08:00

There goes everyone fussing about school, being excited and not knowing what to wear, but here i am, thinking of something else, being lost on between being happy and sad. I tried, i really did. And i didnt ask for anything like that, that's why we shouldnt be friends And well, i think I'm at my best ytd, i didnt blame u for anything though u threw my mood into a hole, making me feel like this now... I was just hoping u'll realized wad uve done, and just tell me that ure sorry. But that never came. I dunno how to feel now, i just felt really lost. And i just hope school will make me happy. Im waiting...

2011-04-17T14:58:00.000+08:00

Good bye my good friend...
I'll definitely miss u.

2011-04-16T19:43:00.007+08:00

Stayover at syaffy's sometime back,
dont know why issit upside down but it is! :D
Went for My Niece's first month and we bought the middle one of her! :D This is uh, i forgot his name. xD
This is baby Joseph i think? xD
Then a lorry caught fire the other day! Behind my block!
DID U SEE MR FOO IN THE PHOTO! XD My stationery list T_T
Here's the mess they created during the FParty! :D

2011-04-16T18:29:00.004+08:00

Hey GUYS!!! :D
So the first day of orientation wasnt much..
just like, they separate u into ur courses,
then just sit there and listened to them talk,
this ang moh sat beside me so im happy. LOL!
then gather back with the old group and
queued up for the freshmen package, then it was home! (:
Then second day was kinda nerve wrecking,
we gathered for lunch then separated to our individual classes,
was lost but jordan kept me accompany until i found my class,
and well, was late but didnt miss anything important.
then we were brought to our class, got briefed for flag day,
got assigned to our work desks, got to know 2 peeps,
introduced to the library,
then got briefed for next week's schedule... (: and homed!
So wednesday i met up with dear, (: had a great day! :D
then it was flag day,
it was weird cause i followed bobo instead of
going to my class' designated place.. collected like 87 bucks?
did my part and well, was kinda odd one out,
but still manage to make new friends thanks to bobo! :D
And well, then it was back to class, counted money,
then well, met and know more classmates of mine, (:
finally found a cute guy in class, LOL!
then after that met up with mus,
went to library to play scrabble while we waited for the rest...
AND HE PWNED MY ASS after amrin came. T_T!
LOL! then well, went off for the party,
was kinda boring and i was really scared of the crowd at first,
then bobo encouraged me at last and i finally joined..
Felt out of place but after awhile,
we just danced and jumped to the music,
was really crazy but definitely fun and a good experience.. xD
hahahahahaha! then homed,
and now.. still feel the soreness in my legs
and arms from jumping and screaming like mad! :D hahahahahaha!
so ytd, went to find dear and bought stuffs i need from popular,
and today went to SYC and had a great day too! :D
This year's definitely fun for me,
and well, school was a great start too! :D
And JAY OMG! I WANNA "LIKE" ALL UR POSTS LIKE FB!
XD Pictures will be in the next post! (:
Cya!

2011-04-10T22:33:00.003+08:00

Heylos! :D So I've bought my new school bag as shown above! (:
Yeah, i thought it was worth the discount, and uh..
Ya, it's supposed to be a lil pinky brown,
but ya, the colour is wrong in the pic. :/
Anyways, tmr is the First day of Orientation,
AND IM SO NERVOUS YET EXCITED! LOL!
I'm gonna die but yeah,
i'll hang in there till i end this blog post. (:
Anyway, i got my pay today but i wasnt feeling very well.. ):
And well, i went to meet dear at douby
then go Marina Square to the Roxy,
Couldnt find the bag i wanted so i decided to go back to
Amk to get this bag, then i really couldnt stand anymore so ya,
dear sent me back home and left with his dad fetching him..
(: Well, i had time to see a shoe i thought was really nice,
wanted to buy but i was afraid it wont be in my budget. ):
so ya, and now, im gonna go eat my medicine and die alrdy!
:D All the best for school ya? :D CYA!

2011-04-07T17:59:00.003+08:00

Love how everyone else's closet looks so nice
with all the vintage clothes they have and all the nice shorts.
But when i look at mine, im like. =='''
I NEED TO SHOP BUT WHERE'S MY BLOODY PAY?!

Went to hub to make my Poly ezlink though im feeling super sick,
met up with bf then bump into Iky and girl. LOL!
went to make then head to food court,
Saw this two bags i'm having a headache deciding,
it looks something like this:
From Code Red!! and it's like 32?
One is hard like this the other is soft...

But not forgetting my Favourite Roxy Bag i saw on eBay. ):
Can someone help me order cause i dont have Credit Card?
I'll transfer in SGD to ur account! T_T
It's roughly around $67.20 SGD!! ):

Then head home to take money from mama and card
then went down to see doctor, came back home,
took my medicine and BOOMZ. i fell asleep.
Forced myself to wake up to send Dear off and fall back asleep
until now.. (: LOL!
So okaye, today's blogging ends here..
And i realised my blog seemed abit cocky. ):
Okaye!
HELP ME DECIDE WHICH ONE I SHOULD BUY PEEPS! THANKS!

2011-04-05T17:01:00.016+08:00

So hey people! :D
and today i came online just to blog, (:
cause it's also cause there's something i NEED to blog about,
which was 4 April! :D hahahaha!
and to Syaffy ; It's okaye Syaff, to feel like we're all falling apart,
to feel that u wanna leave
, it's okaye.
Sometime into the future,
when we meet, we'll still feel the same bond between us.
(: So it's okaye if ure tired of trying to pull us together.
As time pass, we enter different phrases of life, and
though we tend to not hang out as often anymore,
we still feel the same for each other.
And we'll also learn who we wanna keep in touch
and not lose them. (: So dont beat urself down and feel sad okaye?

So about 4/4, FORCED myself to wake up at 7am
after calling dear at 12.02am to sing a happy birthday song
to him cause i couldnt get through at 12. xD
Then bathed and prepared, left the house and met dear at douby,
trained down to habour and had mac's deluxe for breakfast.
And got a stomachache from the ice milo. ==
Then walked to the busstop and took RWS8,
and arrived at our destination. xD
was alrdy so excited when we were arriving la! xD
then walked around, and took some pictures! :D

candy tree,
dear and some stuff.. xD
and of course the trademark universal logo. (:
the entrance... Street Hollywood
And this is JOKER! :D
we got wet after our first visit. ^^
well, we wanted to take the roller coaster,

but it seems like the mad isnt visonary enough. T_T
So, after the ride, we took it ourselves! :D
Sat the Cylon (blue) then Human (red).
and cause my hair was all over the place when i sat cylon,
i felt that the red was nicer but at the end of the day,
u CANT DENY U LOVE THE BLUE TRACK! ^^
So we moved on the Ancient Egypt.
BODY GUARD!
And we took this ride,
MAN IT WAS DAMN SCARY AND I DARED NOT LOOK UP CAUSE I WAS AFRAID I'LL HAVE NIGHTMARES! @_@
then after that, was Jurassic Park! :D
Wanted to take the rapids but it stated we'll get soaked,
so we moved on to take the Canopy thingy with our EXPRESS pass,
and YA THE STAFF THERE SUCK COCK ONE. SUPER RUDE.
So yeah, it was fun. (:
Then moved on to Far Far Away Castle~
Here's Fairy God Mama's shop. xD
it was kinda cool cause there's even a mini farris wheel inside. xD
And we went to watch Shrek 4D! xD
SUPER SUPER COOL AND FUN!! :D
Then rushed down for Water World at 1pm,
Really really cool, all the effects and especially the plane
crashing in suddenly.. xD
Had lunch at Goldilocks and though it's ex,
IT"S QUALITY FOOD!!!! :D TOMYAM FLAVOURED SKIN!!!!!
Then went for Donkey Live, :/ not very fun.. But interactive..
Took the Enchanted Airways, and though it's short, it's FUN! :D
Then walked past the entire Madagascar cause there was nothing
except Merry-go-round. :/
And arrived at Shrek's house! :D
Knock knock, shrek are u done shitting?! xD
And we were back to Hollywood. (: And a nice guy helped us in this pic.
CHIONG FOR CYLON AGAIN,
Sorry for the aggressive look. xD
Then decided to go for the Rapids,
and ended up being THIS WET! xD
WE WERE DRENCHED LA WALAO! xD BUT FUN!!!
Took pic with Shrek 4D,
At Enchanted Airways again,
Then coincidentally ending up at the MONSTER ROCK! :D
Seriously a very very nice show. xD Loved the Shewolf la! xD And cause i was sitting in the middle, they all end up looking straight at me while dancing. xD
Of course, we used our express pass.. xD
CHIONGED CYLON AFEW MORE TIMES AND END UP
Meeting Syaffy and Zul while i was on the roller coaster,
about to leave the station. xD i just scream at her. xD
Then wanted to sit another round but they closed it alrdy.):
So this is Street New York at night,
And Dear & i are really satisfied and tired after it.. (:
Super fun experience, and really,
for singapore to have something like this,
im proud to be a singaporean. xD HAHAHA!
And just a piece of advice,
DONT TAKE THINGS FOR GRANTED.

2011-04-03T04:36:00.003+08:00

Hey PEEPS! (: Sorry for not blogging lately,
been working and out and real busy these days...
Except for ytd. :B hehehehes!
So after working for 3 days,
actually having fun during work like i always do,
and meeting the same old people and chatting.. (:
Work has (i think) officially come to an end for me.
Though i think i would still loved to work,
but i guess last week will be rest week for me!
So uh,

JAY JAY MY PAY WILL ONLY COME IN AROUND 8/9 APRIL! Lol, meaning i will have 3/4 days to rush for shopping spree again,
SO JAY PLEASE KEEP 9,10,11 FREE FOR ME OKAYE IM SO SORRY!

Anyways,
my mum flew off to China on 30 March,
and yes im proud of myself for sleeping alone these days
besides watching scary movies that gave me nightmares..
and well, i hope i can stay over at bf's soon but i dont
think so.. :/ still planning actually. xD haha!
So, uh.. ytd was rest day,
i stayed at home and finally felt really rested after
going out for 2/3 weeks straight without resting at all!
and yeah, i was really tired and i really almost broke down,
but i didnt, and im feeling good now!
So energetic i think i can wait for bf to wake up for work and
greet him before sleeping. :/
LOL! so well, yeah. and Bf's birthday's coming up,
so...

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY ME LOVE! :DDD

Grow well, not taller and wiser. :B I love u~ ^^

and uh, i was wondering what to get him and ive thought of it,
probably gonna find it tmr when i lied to him
but he's probably gonna find out through here! :D
hehehehe! and uh! ya! i hope i find it.. ):
PLEASE LEMMI FIND THE PRESENT I WANNA BUY!
and yeah. :D hope he likes it!
and we're going to USS on his birthday! xD
MAD EXCITED AND I GUESS THAT'S WHY I COULDNT SLEEP!
and well, thanks for everything me love. (:
IM GONNA TREAT U TO ITACHO ONCE I HAVE MY PAY! ^^
That's 2 surprises alrdy. xD hahahahaha!
And well, actually i found out something,
amanda's being a blogshop model @ playlightcircus.livejournal.com
And honestly i find it cool! :D
And well, lately in life, i do have my ups and downs,
though i really gotta say ive been keeping myself "Up and high"
these days, if i suddenly breakdown, please forgive me,
cause sometimes it's just hard to be positive and high all the time. (:
But making urself feel happy all the times feels really good....
i dunno how i did that, but yeah, just keep smiling.. (:
It'll trigger ur positive hormones and make u think happy. (:
So yeah. just keep smiling. if ure sad, it's okaye to cry,
just pick urself up later, and tell urself everything will be fine. ;D
Maybe people may feel im a lil hypocritical, but ya,
if u havent been around me these days,
u wouldnt know. (:
Okaye okaye! :D So i guess i'll go off and try to sleep now. :/
LOVE U PEEEEEEEES! :D CYA!

2011-03-30T01:26:00.000+08:00

And i have decided...

RED IT WILL BE!

2011-03-28T21:56:00.005+08:00

Yeah, im feeling down.
Like Ive just hit the rock's bottom.
But the first person who made me smile after all those tears,
was my dad.
Im greatful to have u,
every single one of u out there for me.

Im not perfect, not trying to be.
But give me time, for me to be better.
I cant promise u anything, but I am trying.
For the least, Im trying.

Bad tummy stirkes back,
but it seemed like no one knew what happened.
I have to be stronger on my own.
So i can live independently and not constantly
seeking for other people's attention for them to care about me.
Cause this life is mine to live, mine to control,
mine to decide where and who i wanna be.
So Mel, pull urself together and become better ; not perfect.

2011-03-23T00:45:00.011+08:00

I'll let the pictures speak today, (: Giant with family sometime back...

Work last Saturday (:Today, Out with Alex, Amrin, Jill, Joling, Chao xin, Weijie, Thiamjie! (: Collect O level cert, Lunch, Movied, Helix Bridge, and Dinner. (: Had Uber FUN! :D

More pics on facebook, cause my phone died after this. xD Gonna work tmr so im sleeping right after this and after my photos are done uploading on facebook! (: Had fun but not alright with ALL the peeps there, And i wished alex had stayed more. ): LOLS! xD Well, guess our outing's gonna be soon! ^^ And i need to borrow a digital camera next time round! :D HEHEHES ALRIGHT! CYA PEEPS! (: Love u DEAR! xD

2011-03-22T01:31:00.002+08:00

Alright! :DDD
HIGH PEEPS! :DD
It's been a while since i blogged, yes i missed it but this is

gonna be real short. ):
Anyways, picnic ytd was real fun,

except for the kite that didnt fly despite my efforts. ):
Loved the pictures and honestly missed the crew. (:
And sure feels good to hang out with them again. (:
Today, i got real tired, cried...

And as usual, one's always there, while the other advices. (;

really couldnt thank enough of them. (;

Thank u both, so much...

Tomorrow, out with part of the class.. and well. (:
Hope it's gonna be fine.

Thanks guys for planning everything in my life these days. (:
Ive learnt to live it more meaningfully now...

but im kinda stucked on "LIE TO ME". xD
GREAT SHOW MANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!
Cya! (:

2011-03-15T22:32:00.003+08:00

HEY PEE PEES! :D HEHEHEHES,

well, im glad im updating my blog regularly now..
well cause i got no work and i have nothing better to do! :D
So i'll start with where i left off! (:

12 March: Work was cancelled so i spent the day at home resting..

but what's bad is that when i woke up, i had a super super bad stomach

ache, and camped in the toilet forever and realised that my stomach

really felt bad like mad and hurts so badly, I CANT EVEN EAT!
So after forcing myself to eat a few mouths of Ban mee, i drank hot water,

ate a gastric medicine my bro asked me to, before feeling well enough to sleep!

then after one hour, woke up, have Biscuits and milo... (:
then it felt soooo much better, but still abit shaky and weak.
so i had porridge, fish and seafood tofu for dinner, and just plain

porridge for supper cause my mum didnt wantt to waste the porridge. :/

13 March : So woke up earlier today to eat "breakfast" cause i didnt want the

gastric to continue torturing me like mad. (: Then i forgot wad i did exactly,

but after awhile i got tired and i went to sleep again, and woke up at maybe around 3+

cause i was hungry again, and ate 4 pieces of Butter sugar with milo. ==
then dear came over and had maggie, and slept for an hour before i wake him up for

dinner cause i was TOO darn hungry. xD then chat with him and watched tv,

went downstairs cause there was like 2 fire engines to KPO, then back up

cause nothing happened and they cause they couldnt find where was the prob.

Then, dear went off and i think i slept pretty late? xD cant rmbed...

14 March : Woke up and bathed, then met Jill at around 1.15pm and off the amk hub

we went for lunch, chat like mad, walk finish amk hub, and window shopped while i

tried a few pieces cause i couldnt help it. xD my shopping nerve is tingling~
then we got tired of walking and went to mac to chat, then went off at 5+?
i went dear's house and jill went home. (: it's really nice to see her for awhile,

just hang and chill around. (:

she shy la! ;Dso slacked, ate, then sleep again cause im so damn tired, and uh homed after that!
:D so uh, i stayed up to do some stuff and get myself updated, and uh. watched

some videos and off i went to bed after eating another butter and sugar cause i was

hungry. :b really getting fat. T_T

15 March 2011 : So i woke up early this morning to have breakfast and lunch, bathed,

prepared then left my house when jay said she reached yishun. (: then i drew money
and met her on the platform! then we trained to Bugis, and decided to shop on the
2nd floor cause it was less crowded, looked around, stopped at most of the shops,
bought the first top,tried on clothes.. (: this is one the tops i tried and loved it badly,
BUTTTTT! ): too ex so i didnt buy.. it's a cropped top btw. (:

so after that, we decided to head back to one the cheap stores and just buy our stuff
there. (: well Jay still couldnt decide but i bought Two Tops alrdy! (:
And we went back again and jay decided to get that! :D hahahahas,
So we got some snacks too cause we were hungry, and decided to look for shorts
at the first floor, so we did, squeeze and got lost, found our way back,
and i dunno instincts tell me to enter this small shop,
and wow, :D I found the shorts i REALLY REALLY LIKED LIKE MAD,
And bought it cause it was only 10 BUCKSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!
then well, walked around more cause Jay only bought a top,
then well i saw cropped tops again and really I SWEAR,
ITS SCREAMMING AT ME FOR ME TO BUY IT! I SWEAR MAN! xD HAHAHAHA!
It's just 15, TOO! but ya, Jay said no. ): Straight no, cause i had no money.

well i have 20, but ya i know i shouldnt spend that.. ): so i didnt and tell myself,
next time, next time. LOLS! (: SO THERE MUST BE A NEXT TIME!!!

And then we went to mac cause we were too tired, sit there and
gossip for like, 2 HOURS! then tabaoded Tori Q!~ ;D and trained home! ;D
And wow, the train SURE IS DAMN EMPTY! :D HEEEEEEEEEEE!
And well, first thing i reached home, this is wad i do!

it's one of the top and the shorts i bought! ;D

(cause we cant try it there)
Others is gonna be a surprise on SUNDAY! :D

Well, so now im here, blogging... (:
took me forever cause i FB, wrote diary and MSN. (:
And well, now im finally done and hope u guys enjoy it! :D
Not much pics, but ya. (:
ALRIGHT! (: CYA PPL!
AND JAY, YES I LOVE U!
AND DEAR, DONT WORRY I LOVE U TOO! ;DDD
different kind of love okaye dont worry guys im normal! :D

cya!

2011-03-12T02:57:00.008+08:00

So first of all,

Let's all pray for Japan,

For everything.

May they be alright...

HEY PEEPS! (:
Well, im back from work,

after removing make up, bathing and surfing the net,

here i am at blogs..

And well, seeing everyone posting different things...

sort of giving me an update on how their life is.. (:
hehehehes, really, gotta get Jay and Kady to jog with me. xD

well, ppl with obssessions, i wont say much,

cause i just cant stand the way they are.. :/

Well, many things are on my mind now...

thinking who to call on this day,

I wanna go get my laptop on 23rd,

Wanna go out with the clique someday,

Wanna meet dear in between everywhere...

SOOO many many things i wanna do,

but never seemed to accomplised them. :/

OH AND I ALMOST DIED OF EMBARRASSMENT CAUSE I SENT
A LOVE MSG TO THE WRONG PERSON!
WORSTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!!!!!!

So here's how days past...

1 March : Sent dear off...

3 March,
Went out with dric for Alex's Present~

4 March,
Went out with Family at night to Ikea!
I think i look really charismatic in this photo! :B

5 March
Jamming~ :D And Hans after that! :D

6 March,
Daiso & Giant with Family~ xDDD

So well, i'll start at 7 March cause the other days can be described in pictures! :D
So after slacking and lazing around, decided to get up, prepare and left the house!
Reach changi late but well, i was kinda disappointed when dear went...

"U run for what sia!" and not a hug.. ):
Well, went to East Coast to have dinner, then back to his house to help him unpack,

then back to mine and followed my bro before coming back for soup, then slept! (:

8 March : :D well, as usual i met dear late cause i got lost suddenly at douby.. ):
went for I Am Number 4 and well, i thought the movie was awesome leah JAY~ ):
Then rock our way and shake our butts to the Steamboat place in Bugis,

and though i wasnt really hungry, i still ate alot... and eat even more. xD
Then went back home, gave him the present, and well, kiss him goodbye~ T_T

9 March : woke up really lazily and waited for mummy to come back with lunch,

ate then helped to change the bedsheets and fell asleep halfway again! xDDDDD
until dear called me up to ask me to change... then we left for the YCK Stadium!
started off quite fine, and lasted 2 & 1/2 Rounds before started walking a lil,

and finished 4 Rounds before i went up to sit while i waited for dear,

then decided to join him @ the last round, but i failed badly to keep up at his speed! T_T
So, after that, walked home REAL slowly, ate and died, bathed then watched dear & nick

played GOW2 until 11.35, before dear went off. ); i missed u alrdy!!!! D;

10 March : so i woke up feeling really sore in my legs BADLY!!! REAL BAD I COULDNT

EVEN SQUAT OR SIT DOWN! and uh... basically slack for the whole day and prepared

for work... ); but i couldnt really sleep~

11 March : so i woke up early today, bathed, and prepared for work.

met up with the 3As, then ate yoshinoya and head down to Esplanade..

reached there on time but the managers were 1 hour late, :/

so we just lelelala and then get to work when they came..

Got some newcomers scolded.. ): and well, everything's fine after that...

then well, after eating my dinner with Astley, i was running to the toilet

upstairs and fell badly. ): Got a super huge blue black, abut still continued

with what i was doing and beared with all the pain i felt. ):
Well, work was really tough today, cause the other girls were slacking. =='''

and well, i guess there goes my right shoulders somehow.. ):

and i cant deny my strength grew! xD HEHHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEEEEEEEEEEE!
so uh, after that, packed up,and signed off,

and Dric came with his dad and Bolin to fetch us for Prata then

back home! xD it was sure fun and kinda cool somehow! xD
So i got home first, and my feet stinks worse than century eggs. ):
LIKE SERIOUS HK FEETS! and well, here i am.. (:

i know, my blog's really boring so ya...

Here's the rest of them! (:Alright! :D So that's all for now,
tomorrow im gonna rest, Sunday gonna work...
Monday maybe out with Joling,
And guys please just call me...
Im feeling kinda lost in the Social Network when i dont on the comp
for a few days~ T_T

And i realised how Family-oriented my life was without dear. 0.0

lols, good and bad but well, (:
With everything now like that, obviously it's better... (:
just that i missed the clique. :/
Alright, Cya all! :D

2011-03-09T02:07:00.001+08:00

i really have nothing to say...

2011-03-08T03:22:00.005+08:00

Happy 2nd Year Love! :D
Im sorry it's like that but, im blogging with my phone. ):

2011-03-08T03:17:00.003+08:00

I really really hate it when u go all out to do something for that fella, and end up being scolded by him/her, and what's better, is not even being appreciated.
And u know, sometimes, i really just need u to understand something... But i dunno how to...

2011-03-04T01:40:00.006+08:00

I wished u really did hear me sing these songs tonight...

Gotten

Thinking of you

Teenage Dream

It's hard...

For me to hang on.

All i really wanted, was to cry my heart out..

To the extend where if i see u again, i wont cry.

I know im selfish, way too selfish to the extend where i, myself cant take it.

but..

Ive missed you so badly,

when im crying now, im shaking...
Please come home soon Love,
I wanna be held in your arms again.

Well, hey people! (:
Im sorry my blog died, and i became so emotional...
Well, partly cause my bf went malaysia for 6 days,
only coming back on the 7th MARCH,

And i just got tired on turning my comp on..

Until i remembered, i havent blogged. :x
So yeah, here i am, (:
With mixed feelings, and i do appreciate the people
who tried making me smile, especially my brothers.

Really really,

And well, like ive been saying, I MISS MY CLIQUE!
But u know, sometimes,
when things happened to u and one didnt cared,

to me, it's like, i shouldnt be bothered about him/her

cause he/she doesnt give a damn about me.

so actually i gave up trying..

Well, dear and i, have been smooth,

we treasure our days alot now, and especially our time..

got kinda angry just now but im fine, nothing much happened.

just me being petty. ):

and uh, well, just now, went out with dric to shop for alex's present,

talked ALOT as usual, and well,

went home after that, sang a few songs,

learnt a few more..

and yeah, my voice's really great tonight,

just that i didnt get to sing for dear so im really sad. ):
And i dunno why, maybe dear's not around,

But ive been thinking more than usual...

From the best to the worse, i just kept doing so.

It's really bad, and i need my medicine:
TOH QIN XIAN.
):

I MISS U! I WANT U! I NEED U! I LOVE U!I DEAR U!I BEST U! I QINZ U! I PULL U! I PUSH U!

I KEEP U!I JUST U!I EDIT U!I BLOG U!I SIGN U!I LISA U! I PAWN U! I RIPE U! I KISS U!
I LOAD U! I SING U!I CHOC U!I LOAF U!I PIPE U!I FREE U!I FIND U!I FISH U!I LEAD U!

I TREE U!I LIKE U!I WISH U!I FELL U!I POST U!I BOLD U! I FALL U!I SAVE U!I BUMP U!

I JUST MISS U SO BADLY! ):

so cya people! :D
I miss u guys too.. LOL!

2011-02-27T01:27:00.002+08:00

i guess it's expected but we're back.

i cant live without him,

not for the rest of my life. (;

2011-02-24T17:37:00.005+08:00

So, i wanna thank u too, for being part of my life.

A memory i wont forget, a person i will remember.

Though it's been really hard on us, we just have to do it.

No matter how badly we dont want it, no matter how badly it hurt us.

I guess i'd rather end it than let it drag on and hurt us even more.

I'm sorry, but

Thank you, for ur love, ur effort, ur compromises, ur everything..

I just want u to know i treasure u, even if we're like that now.

Even if we're separated now, i just wanna let u know that i still love u,

No matter how ur views on me will be, no matter how long it will be

I will still love u forever.

Maybe u wont believe me, but u've grown to be a part of me.

A part of me which i love, more than myself.

A part of me which i need, but for now i lost it.

U may think i'll move on once i found someone new,

But now, im telling u, even if i really move on,

even if i found someone,

even if u no longer need me,

i still do.

cause u have a place in my heart, and

no matter how long it will be,

the place u had in me can never be changed.

Listen to me dear,

i know u cant talk to me now,

i know ure in a mess now,

i know ure probably wondering why am i so irritating..

But honestly i wanna be more than a normal friend dear,

i wanna be there for u, when u need me.

i wanna reach out to u... like,
i want to be able to you still go ur house, and so can i come mine,

i wan to be able to still stay by ur side, and u to stay by mine,

till one of us found another partner.

i want to be that kind of person to u.

so we can still love each other, but not get hurt or commit fully to the other.

so we can still hug & kiss, just not get hurt..

and constantly remind ourselves, we dun own one another,

we just need each other.

u may think im selfish to ask u of it,

but i just wan u to know.

i still want u, still need u,

i just cant bear to see u get hurt everytime.

please tell me how u feel...

2011-02-24T01:08:00.003+08:00

i dont like it, and i dun want it happening again. cause i cant stand it.

sounds great, it may seemed small, but it meant alot to me.

but honestly, ill put it in plain words : it's pushing me alrdy.

i dont wanna see it or HER again.

im sorry.

2011-02-22T16:30:00.007+08:00

Obsessionjason:
"I enjoy the company of an opposite sex friend. Nothing more. Nothing less. Just a friend. A friend that I can trust, confide to, hang around, watch tv with, cook with. A friend that I can totally be comfortable around with, with no emotional or physical attraction attach; that’s what I want. We…"

Honestly, this is all i asked of u to understand truely.
A friend of the opposite sex to hang out with... nothing more, nothing less.

Well, this is something i stole off Jay's blog. :x Sorry Jay!
And i really liked it, the message it's trying to convey.
It's something im going through now, or rather have.
it's not a bad thing but it does caused misunderstandings...
Anyways, HELLO PEEPS! (:
Sorry for not blogging all this while.. ):
Have been busy working and basically being sick. ):
yes i havent recovered and im sorry i couldnt make it for
the movie marathon. ):
well, but i hope i'll recover by the end of today,
Dont wanna bring this sickness to work and cause all sorts of problems
for my work mates and especially my managers, ):
And well, lately, bf has been coming over, seeing me sleep cause
am not feeling well like i said, and well, this friday i'll most probably be
going over to stay at his house! (:
Since he's flying off on tuesday.. D: and we havent had the time to be
together lately... so ya!!! :D I must persuade my mum to let me stay over!
:D and well, yeah i do so, MISS the clique too! ):
miss their happy faces and retarded laughters. (:

And Jay Jay Jay, are u feeling okaye?
And YES U SCARE THE HELL OUT OF ME THE OTHER DAY!!!
lols. (: but it's nice to see u! :D hehes, well, currently my $ is gone,
AGAIN! yes cause i have been naughty and not saving.. ):
so i dun think i can shop with you soon.. okaye maybe i can spend
$50! :D But i'll see when im free and out of work lors! :D
hehehehes, okaye okaye!

And well, today!
SURPRISINGLY, but starhub made my day! (:
It's a service officer named steven/steve! :D
hahahahahas! well, ytd i called to enquire about my bills,
and like why am i charged with ss300 when i changed to ss100
on the spot when i recontracted.. so he said he'll call back once he received
the reply and he woke me up this afternoon :B hehes.
and uh, he told me the officer who served me the other day
FORGOT to make the change, and i dont need to pay the bills this time!!!
:DD hehehehs, so im like, OMG THANK U VERY VERY MUCH!! hehehes, :D so basically a day like this starts from then,
i smsed bf to tell him we dont have to go down to douby alrdy,
cause i was planning to go down if he didnt call, so ya! :D
and well, now im blogging cause dear boyfriend, Toh Qin Xian said he
has nothing to read, and that i should update my blog alrdy! :D
so here i am, telling u my dear boyfriend Toh Qin Xian,
I have updated,
U can read,
And...

I LOVE U! ;D

Alright! cya peeps! (:

2011-02-15T02:31:00.004+08:00

Hey peeps, (:
here to update about Vday! :D
So, i got this 2 days before Vday!! :D The day before Vday, bf and i went to watch
Just go with it, and to MBS for buffet dinner,
then the sky park as a celebration of our Vday! :D

And on Vday,
met 3 other lonely girls,
Kady, Jay & Yappy!
Caught the same movie and went shopping @ Far East!
Manage to buy a jacket but im still hungry for tops actually. (:
So, maybe i'll call them out again ya?
(: I'd loveee to write, but mummy's chasing me to off. ):
sorry if everything's so brief and lacky.

Dear, I wanted to thank u for Valentines' even though it's not on the actual day.
For the effort u put into planning, and for the minutes u waited till u slept.
For coming to my house without complaining each time,
For going to orchad just to get Canele Chocolates,
For hugging me so tightly everytime, and showering me with unconditioned love.
Though it was recent, and honestly i havent really recovered.
I wanna tell u that i love u, and thank u for all the memories u created with me..
Dear, i know it's tough but let us fill the gap that is between us okaye?
I love u dear, (; i really do.

2011-02-09T00:11:00.002+08:00

Now let me explain :
It's like a quiet desperation.

Like an old memory i would wan but hate to relive.

The constant struggle of fighting with myself-

The consequences hitting me everytime as i think about the difference it'll make.

Like when u see a change in it, u wanna try it again.

A want to know how it feels, want to see for urself.

But only coming to know it's all lies and that everything is still the same.

The feelings u once had- the pain u once suffered.

The happiness u once felt, the memory which seemed so vague.

It's like an illusion to u, but u know it's real.

But all in all, u paced ur thoughts and slow urself down.

And realised it's the present that seemed the most important,

Then slowly, when the whole process repeats itself and when reality hits,

U learn to appreciate stuff better...

And after all that, u know only one thing remains...

YOU.

xD Anyways, im trying to describe something but i dun exactly know wad.

STRANGELY dunno wad, but i feel it being there. :/

Maybe it's how my brain works and how i tell myself things...?

weird eh?

anyways, had a nice sms with jay today..

(: it felt nice to talk to her.

and i never realised i never talked to her abut BGR.

well, (: I do miss u jay, a lot.

and i wanna know u better. (:
Thanks for the tip.

AND REMIND ME TO SMS U ONCE I GET MY PAY!

xD hahahahas~

i would wanna "write" again sometime. (:
i have another topic to write..

and i probably liked some feedback. (:

It's : PAIN.

2011-02-05T01:19:00.004+08:00

Hey People! :D
CNY HAVE BEEN FUN! :D

New Year's Eve's EVE!

so, i woke up around 11 that day,

washed me face and waited for my mum to come back with my

lunch and all the stuff for the reunion dinner! :D

so after eatin lunch, i went around the house cleaning up some extra

stuff and hang the decorations up!

after, i started plucking the frozen prawns for my

house's traditional dish, KUA HUEY!

simplified, it's like nor hiang lors.

THEN WALAO PLUCK THE DAMN PRAWN GOT
THE FREAKING BIGASS HOUSEFLY!

OMFG I SLAP IT STILL FLY COME BACK!!!

so i decided to close then windows and stink up the entire house! :D

smallest prawn ive plucked

Then my bro started chopping and mixing the ingredients

and started wrapping, to get this!

wrapp until 8 plus then my bro and i

chiong down to buy dinner... MAC! LOLS.

then eat alrdy, dear dropby to pass me the love letters

and also surprised me too! xD
hehehes,

but it's sure nice to see him! T_T

then i bathe and sleep.

New Year's EVE! :D

so, i woke up around 12.30,

ate lunch and uh, ate some snacks,happy second bro. NICK! :Dwhile bro sliced the chicken,

and take retarded pictures! ;Dand went out with kor

to deliver some stuff to aunty and sharon!

then, came back, change, and started eating alrdy!!

we ate as much as we could and yes, there is ALOT of leftoves.

so after that, i mopped the floor, watched tv, bathed,

and starting torning by watching my fave drama

until 5 and die! :D

Day 1

woke up and rush off to pray,

went courtsthen ikea,

and then back home,

and cousin's house! :D
it's nice to see all those people again,

and definitely all my uncles, aunties, and cousins! :D
Not forgetting my niece and nephew! :D
hehes, so uh, we went there, walk around, talk abit..

and we started eating cause i was so damn hungry,

and cause i didnt eat lunch at all.. (:

THE TOMYAM WAS DAMN GOOD LEAH!
and after that, slack around, then sang some songs,

then finally go for another round,

and we all sat down to watch channel u.

then 3 kingdom thingy. :D
GOOD GOOD SHOW!
Bad thing, i couldnt rmb who was who and my cousin

got frustrated answering me. xD

Then we gathered for blackjack and bro and i won $4!

well, quite lil but we bet 50cents only marh.. (:

And went home to crash after that.

Day 2

Woke up this afternoon, bathed and left the house.

Cabbed down and say HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE,

and well, sat down for lunch! (:
So, to my surprise, my aunts and uncles were all very proud

about my O's and.. LOLS,

they went on FB to look at my prom night pictures. xD HAHAHAHAHA!
say wad sexy and alll. @_@
i was really shy abut all the sudden compliments. :/

YEAH I KNOW IM BIMBOTIC,

but i dun usually get this from these many ppl. :/

lols. so oh well, after that play ban luk, lost 30 cent,

lao-ded yu shen, and cop ALL the salmon! xD
(i know imma ass)
and well, ate dinner (buffet) and watch some tv before MORE

ppl arrive~ @_@ like mad that kind. LOL!

then hide in the room to play jackass and idiot,

then play In Between. LOLS!

And i won 5bucks for just distributing the cards. xD
cause my cousin won alot and decided to bet on me. :/

so yeah, end up left 3 person and we decided to split cost.

lols. and well, here i am! (:
And pictures will be up.. :D ENJOY~

:D so hardly i post so much alrdy! :D
okaye, wish everyone a happy new year,
and may everyday be soooo fulifilling! :D
CYA PEOPLE!

2011-02-03T04:35:00.001+08:00

Sucks to be abandoned...

2011-02-01T00:06:00.001+08:00

Hey PEEPS!
Sorry for MIA-ing for so long and here i am trying

to salvage my own blog by doing this once in awhile.

well,

so this week i didnt work cause

i wanted to take some time for CNY! :D
so uh, i have been spring cleaning,

and i dyed my hair though it isnt really visible. :/

so yeah,

these days have been really well for me since the year started,

and credits goes to everyone around me..

(: went to open houses,

went on dates,

watched movies,

and rarely went out to play

or go dear's house... ):

got into Interior Design SP,

but appealed for Landscape Architecture SP!

Results are coming out on the 8 Feb,

And hopefully Jay can appeal successfully too! (:
So, basically all of us can meet somewhere between

all the 3 places we're scattered at.. (:

And honestly im missing the cliques and my friends alot..

): havent been out with u guys for so long...

and i THINK i have put on weight... xD
Things with Family, and Loved have been good~

Reconciled with my bro,

And Dear, though his projects are EXTREMELY EXTREMELY demanding,

he still makes time for me! ^^
So i appreciated that alot. (:
And well, it's just a simple update larhs, my mum wanna sleep alrdy..

So yeah, have been keeping up on sleeping early and...

i didnt try to slim down after working cause im SOO FARKING LAZY!

and i think ive lost weight anyways! xD
So, Happy Lunar New Year Guys!

:D Get fat so we can swim again!

And may everyone be as happy as ever! :D HEHES!

I AM SO GENERAL!

Hope u guys tagged, and uh,

dont also can larhs if u lazy... (:
Ive still been visiting ur blogs. (:

Alright, CYA~

2011-01-26T02:38:00.003+08:00

Work: during a break~my shopping spree on sunday~

Probably saying bye to my black hair~ T_T

too lazy to blog.. ): SORRY~

2011-01-15T23:27:00.001+08:00

WORK WORK WORK. ):
Busier and tired than ever.

2011-01-13T00:22:00.002+08:00

MY FINAL POLY COURSE CHOICES!
1. Psychology, TP
2. Psychology & Community Services NP
3. Interior Design SP
4. Interior Architecture & Design TP
5. Landscape Architecture SP
6. Applied Chemistry and Pharmarceutical Science SP
7. Early Childhood Studies TP
8. Early Childhood Education NP
9. Arts Business Management NP
10. Hospitality & Tourism Management TP
11. Human Resource with Psychology SP
12. Civil Engineering with Business SP

2011-01-11T00:38:00.002+08:00

HI, here's my olevels results:

L1R4 : 12 (after cca)
L1R5 : 19

English : B4

Comb. Humans : A2

Maths : B3

Science : A2

Poa : C5 (wtf)
Chinese : B3

And here's the Poly courses i chosed:

1. Psychology TP

2. Interior Design SP
3. Interior Design TP
4. Mass Communications SP
5. Landscape Architecture SP
6. Applied Chemistry with Pharmarceutical Science SP
7. Early Childhood Studies TP
8. Child Psychology & Early Education NP
9. Early Childhood Education NP
10. Psychology & Community Services NP
11. Hospitality & Tourism Management TP
12. Civil Engineering SP

LOL Yeah, abit messed up but i might consider changing it cause i

havent key it in yet. (: maybe just change the arrangement and all larh. (:

but overall like that lor. (:

im happy but sad larhs but im happy with wad i have lor. (:

alright, that's all got today. (: cya~

2011-01-09T23:45:00.004+08:00

Alright,

so went poly open houses ytd,

Tp for less than an hour,
and then SP then jamming.

felt sad about just leaving dear after telling him

i was gonna eat lunch with him. ):

well, still loves SP's way of stuff,

but i wanted to get more info from TP but...

there was really no one there to talk to me so,

haix. ): bobian, cannot do anything. ):

Anyways, tmr is the releasing of results,

and im sure im gonna cry real badly. ):

haix, please prepare loads of tissue.

ahh wait wait i go shit. ): AGAIN!

Haix, and ive been shitting too much lately.

): no idea why also..

well, today, (:

went to meet dear and had Ramenplay at 4. ==

then went to get dear's blazer,

and go his house, then left again to TTSH,

to visit his great uncle, and then to Jumbo,

to celebrate his grandma and mum's bdae. (:

then before we ate, i run go toilet shit. T_T
then now, just shit twice. == haix, ): BAD STOMACH,

anyways, here are some pictures, :D
and the mango cake was GOOOOOOOOD! :D

the balloon i wanted at TTSH. ):make a wish...BLOW!Cut the cake...CRANBERRIESMy piece of cake :DDear's 500 chins! and well, im nervous for tmr, ):
who isnt man! lols.
just hope i dont cry too badly,
nor jump like mad too much,
haix. ):
Im just worried larhs... but no matter wad,
wad's done is done, and so, we just have to hope for the best.
Alright, GOOD LUCK PEOPLE!
AND IM GONNA MISS MY DEAR! ):
WILL CALL YOU ONCE I GET MY RESULTS,
LOVE U! (:
cya~

2011-01-07T23:47:00.004+08:00

Hey Peeps,
thanks for the dropby.. (:
anyways,

WORK, was as usual, TIRING.

(: and Alex had his first breakage. LOL.

and well, for first timers, Andre & Astley,

everything went fine,

but this is one of the slackest job Ive ever had! (:
so u guys still gotta be prepared for more. (:

well, today, was Cramp cramp and even more cramp. ):
dont feel well at all, and well, was supposed to go

bf''s house, and ended up he came instead... ):
we had a great dinner, but well, when he went home,

he told me that his grandma had prepared alot for us,

but we didnt came for dinner. ): so we both felt bad...

): Next time gotta eat double alrdy.

Well, despite the pain, i still drank cold stuff, cause i forget.

but ya and now it's the aftermath of it. ):
haix, well, tmr going for poly open houses,

hopefully everything goes fine and everything is smooth,

feeling real bad now but i'll still go out tmr,

i cant just ps them since im the organiser. :/

~~i feel depressed thanks to u~~

forget about it.

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO U.

& SCREW U.

2011-01-05T23:33:00.003+08:00

Hi PEOPLE! :D
I HOPE U'LL COME IN FREQUENTLY!
anyways, first of all,
HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY SHYAI!!!! :D
im really sorry im so late that u guys left when i came.. ):
well, actually i could be there, but here's how...

4 Jan, 2011.
Woke up at around 1.30pm?
and mummy offered to steam ham for me for my brunch.
then we were talking about stuff,
and mummy asked me abut my schedule for the next day,
which i havent planned anything.
so, she asked me to follow her to the bank to change my add,
make a debit card, and follow her down to buy groceries...
so i said, orhs okaye lors...
after slacking for around 2~3hours,
dear came, took a nap and we left for western food.
ordered a beef steak each, thinking it was $7,
and came up at $11 EACH! T_T
so well, mine was nice but dear had a hard time chewing,
and he still smiled nicely to the fellow when he came to ask. (: hao xin ren.
then walked back and well, his papa came to fetch him home.
after that, dric reminded me to write a list of courses i wanna find out..
so i did and syaffy called... and all,
wished shyai happy bdae and we started planning for the thingy..
thinking i didnt had anything on, because i forgot my appointment with mum,
i said yeah i can make it, but i thought it was pasir ris,
i had to leave early to meet dear later at 5/6.
so ya, then i started making shyai's card halfway i rmbed, oh FUCK!
my appointment for mummy, so i told yappy i couldnt go. ):
then woke up around 10+? cuz i was damn thirsty, i read kady's msg,
but i didnt realise she sent two my phone's msgs was in conversation form.
then by the time i realised, im alrd out with my mum, and she went
to get her hair cut, and i had to wait for her cause she dont have keys home if
i ran off first.. ): so yeah, i really gotta apologise for my mistake.
I'm really sorry shyai. ):
and i blogged this cause i didnt want u to misunderstand me, but im really sorry.
): well, then when i reached, u guys left. so ya. and syaffy was all high and mad. (;
soooo syaffy. lols. and well, after that, dear wanted to bowl?
so we started and i sucked badly. T_T
went to pool, well, though we drawed,
i felt the quality of the balls and sticks sucks so i had no mood to play... ):
and cause dear was tyco and pro too... LOL!
(; but honestly some shots were really nice though u didnt mean to.. LOL! (:
next time bring u go quality pool okaye? (: hehes, u'll really enjoy it. lols.
so that's all for today, and im really tired.
AWKWARDLY!!! Cause normally at this time im wide awake... LOL!
okaye larhs, i shall go watch some HELLO BABY and sleep after that,
got work tmr. (: cya people!
Sorry no pictures... ):

2011-01-04T18:09:00.003+08:00

AGEING:
From a few months old...
From the left, Me, Nick, Colin

A few years old...
Colin, Nick, Me10 yrs old ~ 13 years old
Colin, Me, Nick18 yrs old Nick,20 yrs old Colin,16 years old Me, as of 2010! :D :D i was thinking, uploading pictures might
attract more frequent readers cause pictures
dont bore u, but oh well, hopefully. (:
and i realised i havent been uploading pictures
cause all's up on facebook. xD
Love, Mel! :D

2011-01-04T04:11:00.003+08:00

*Happy with my new blog skin* :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

2011-01-04T02:57:00.002+08:00

My 2o11 Resoultion:
-Be Happy & Smile always (:
-Be a better person
-Slim down // Grow taller
-Be MORE Appreciative of everything
-Love Everyone else more
-Treasure my time with BF & Friends
-Clear off ALL my Debts
-Balance Playing,Studies&Work Better
-Try to turn as lil ppl down as possible
-Make others Smile (:
-Dont cry so much
-Be strong! (:
-Dont sleep so late everyday
-Stop making everyone/anyone worry. (;
-Love myself more. (:

2011-01-04T02:25:00.006+08:00

I guessed my blog's been too BORING!
But im active on fb! xD HAHAHAHA,

-gonna start working again,
.

-gonna go to open houses,

-gonna hang out with dear as much as possible,

-gonna miss my friends,

-Gonna Love u more...
.
): Im sorry about today love, truely sorry. ):

2010-12-30T02:59:00.007+08:00

You and YOU

makes me worry... ):
can i do anything to help?
I just want you two to feel better...
by all means, cause i know how's its like to feel
what you're going through right now... >< please....

PS: Mouse over the "you" to know WHO u are...

2010-12-28T01:51:00.001+08:00

i am glad that everything turned out fine,

it made me more appreciative and understanding.

thank you me dear,

and dric for the present.

thank you everyone who's making things right

for me all these while...

all i wanna really say is a big thank you.

2010-12-26T02:53:00.005+08:00

Hey people~ (:

schedule update!

23 dec 2010, Thursday.
well, christmas party with the clique was fun~

but well, before that, went dric's house

and taught him how to make cheesecake~
then went for the party~ (:

hmm, i would say it went well?

ppl get their tummy filled,

gifts exchange was well, fine?

and the games were fun...

lols. (:
but most importantly,

it feels good to be with the clique again. (:
ppl to go crazy and mad with. (:
really missed them since prom. ):

24 dec 2010, Friday.

then the next day was dear's house,

and uh, i havent received feedback about the cheese cake yet,

well, just ask dear tml lor~ (:

so, we had pizza hut's pizza and domino's pizza....

pizza hut sucks. LOL
so next time, im never gonna eat pizza hut's pizza ANYMORE!
lols.

then got sent back to a lonely home, and waited till 3am

until someone finally came back : mummy! T_T

25 dec 2010, Saturday
hehehes, well...

sooooooooooooooooo,

well, today, dric told me the cheese cake was so lovable,

and well, today i went to celebrate our 80th anniversary

for soka at my workplace, the SIS!
at first it was all boring and stuff....

actually there wasnt really a 'high' part...

but well, at least i get to meet dear there. (:
really missed him though i saw him the day before~

and well, after that, went to blk 401 @ hougang for supper

and have a bowl of kway chap! (:
Not the best, but it was satisfactory. (:
and well, finally got to hug dear really tight

and kissed him @ the stairs. :B
but lol, i hope i get to hug him tml. ):
it seems like hugs were never enough! T_T

now for the future~

26 dec 2010, Sunday

gotta wake up early if i wan a new phone,

and i've decided to get htc 7 mozart,

it's a window's phone,

and im gonna convince my dad to get the data plan.

(: and hopefully, starhub wont charge

me without my contract. ;x

cause i've really been using alot but i didnt know when

my contract ended so cnt blame me. ;x

after this, im gonna rush home for a short nap,

then meet the clique and bf @ amk,

and head out for out bbq @ pasir ris! :D
It's gonna be fun and well,

hopefully we can start the fire first.

:/ i wonder if they rmbed to buy the bbq stuff...

28 dec 2010, Tuesday

gonna head back to school and support

my dance group @ orientation! (:

29 dec 2010, Wednesday

LATE Christmas party @ Lionel's place. (:
think im gonna do abit of singing~

30 Dec 2010, Thursday

Meeting my T.I.M. fellas for an outing~ (:

1 Jan 2011, Friday

Primary school gathering.
(: I hope ppl will turn up though i put a 'maybe' on fb!
and most probably jamming?

After 2 Jan 2011, Saturday

im gonna start working again,

and well, hopefully lexy will work with me. (:
hehehehehehehehehe~

alright i gotta go sleep!
got 6 hours left! T_T
NIGHT PPL!

cya~

2010-12-22T00:33:00.002+08:00

Hello People! (:
I've been too lazy to blog,

so, oh well, i just drop by to tell u how i've been doing.

(: Okaye, so after so much fun,

i finally started working,

UNUSUALLY!
meaning there's no fixed timing,

and well, i've only worked 3 days so far.

one was cancelled, and cause now, im not feeling well.

): so ya, cant work.

and i stopped work this week cause it's

time to celebrate CHRISTMAS!!!
so yup stopped! (:

probably resume after the 26/27 lor!

Anyways, im here to thank my lovely lovely boyfriend,

(again), for taking care of me,

and sharing the same air as me while im sick! (:
hehehe, thank you me dear! (:
And im sorry u've contracted my flu too! T_T
LOL! (:
And well, this week...

i just hoped i recovered in time for the FUN & FOOD!
(: So, maybe Boyfriend has to take care of me another day,

so that i can recover fully for Christmas! :D
*hint hint hint* xD
LOL!
Okaye larh, so im lazy here... and well,

HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY BOBO!

.
:D hehes, may u smile, always. (:
alright! CYA! xD

2010-12-14T04:43:00.003+08:00

Am i growing FATTER or SKINNIER? ):

.
Indecisive! T_T

.
I'm dying from this man~ LOL!

2010-11-30T01:25:00.003+08:00

BUSYBUSY:

Tuesday, 23 nov 2010,

mujin and limin came up for a home visit!

though they were late for 45 mins, xD

they made me thought alot about work & school.

Wednesday, 24 nov 2010,

went out with suf, tianci, alex, joling and amrin.

first, went to eat lunch then chiong down for movie,

write our name @ bowling then we archaded while waiting,

chiong to bowling then pool after that. (:
hehes, well, it's really fun around them, laugh and play like mad. (:

Thursday, 25 nov 2010,

called the fella @ taka to book a date for the interview,

then head down to dear's house to SLEEEEP xD
and then after that, we're happy to fill our stomaches

with good home-cooked food.

Friday, 26 nov 2010,

went swimming with clique's GIRLS!

xD everyone look kinda hot and cute!

well, we played for the 1st 3 hours,

then eat, syaff came and announce... GOOD NEWS,

xD CONGRATES! ;D
and swam for another 2, then homed.

(: after half an hour homed,

i had to forcefully wake myself up and prepare...

head down to orchad,

waited for cedric for 10 mins before he appeared

and laughed @ me in heels,

amrin came, bought movie tix, ate bk, then movied.

someone farted damn loud and i thought it was amrin. xD

sorry ahh... then walked down the beautified orchad road,

and well, got treated to starbucks. :B THANK YOU~

then dear came to pick me home and

lent me his slippers to wear from mrt to home.

xD hahaha unglam but well, it's an affection. xD

hahahahahahahaha~

Sunday, 28 nov 2010,

dear came around 11.40am,

and waited for his piggy to get ready and chiong down

for meeting. shared my unclear testimonial and well,

saw momma's eyes glittering. xD with tears. (:

then, we head down to bishan just to peak @

the price of the swimming costume. ==

and well, head back to dear's house.

after napping, we went out with dear's family for fish soup.

xD awesomest. then head for bowling...

hahhhahahahahah~ 1st time to get 100+ for all three games,

but still unable to break my 115 ):

then, dear sent me all the way home.

though it was 11+pm alrdy,

); and i really missed him now...

still rmbing how we bid goodbye each time...

haix. ): feels like im gonna cry. xD HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

Monday, 29 nov 2010,

sk and i met to go interview tgt...

then Dear came to support me @ lunch. xD

hahahahaha~ so cute lor he~ ;D

then we almost lost our way there,

waited for 30mins for the fella to appear,

and another 1hr for her to attend to us...

and oh well, just hope that she'll call... @_@

head down to city hall to glance @ wp, kady & yappy,

and homed. (:

Tuesday, 30 nov 2010 (tmr),

planned to swim with sk in 8am

then head down for badminton @ 2pm.

so actually got alot of time in between for me to eat

and sleep. xD

well, summary of my days lor. (:
so i've been really busy and oh well,

at least ive spent each meaningfully...

except saturday!

DEAR LOOK HERE! XD

well, i just wanna thank dear,

for having the patience and love he showered on me,

now, it seemed pretty obvious how much he's done for me,

and i really really appreciate it me love. (;

thank you for running here and there even when u're dead tired.

thank you for forgiving me, even when i alrdy promised.

and thank you for coming to support me,

even when i didnt asked u to. (;

i couldnt asked for more dear...

really, thank you... (;

u're like magic dear, (: like a guy i can never never NOT missed.

even when im having fun, out with my friends,

it's always weird to find that...

hey, dear's not with me now...

i need to take care of my own things,

and watch wad i spent. xD hahahahahahahas.

though it may seemed minor,

but it's the minor things that mattered. (:

thank you my dear...

(: really... hehes, i just want u to know this... (:
i love u dear!

xD hopefully we can celebrate our

21st month tgt~ (:

HAPPY ADVANCED 21st MONTH ME LOVE~

.
:B hehes, alright, should sleep now...

not later sk will be dying to kill me. xD

cya guys~ (:

2010-11-22T21:32:00.027+08:00

Hi PEOPLE! :D
PROM'S UP!

enjoy the photos. spent hours uploading. :D

as the pictures speaks a thousand words,
only descriptions are needed! :D ENJOY

me before make upyeap, i do the makeup myself! ^^travelling there...mus! xDtoilet toilet!jay jay!chancerysilvia galvin & dillionjill~yappy!kady bobojiayingsyaffy joling~mr tiejoling & gloriahuishan!sokkhingkaresiakd & zhihongkd & shawnbobo~ joyce~michelle lum jamiesufianto tezza thiam jie dian! ^^amrinalberthsiao chin & pattaraiky table people:
suhan, silvia, jillchaoxin, tianci, kevinjay & yappyhuiling & bobo performing with nicholas prom king & queen nomineessyaffy & cassandra performing leader of team laksa: zhihong
leader of team kimchi : sangwoon!nominees for HOTTEST GUY!nominees for hottest girl: whee teng,chancery,gek luo,vanessaour 'western face changer'cause he does magic too. xD xD she's fine, dun worry!prom king & queen MTV! xD
others are in forms of videos.the three torners! xDalexy~4e2's YAM SENG! :Dhuiru~old uncle cedric. ^^zhiyan & huishan~the clique the girls.mdm ye!dian~act cool huh!BIMBO!matthew phuasteveeeeeeyjordan~jerome! ^^spencer & jun hao toilet after movie after prom. xD

alright, that's all the photos! (:
almost half were taken from facebook!
credits to everyone. (:
well, prom was really fun and enjoyable.
though it lasts 3~4 hours, it felt like it was only
a few minutes, and only 1 hour. ):
wish to have prom again!
and movie after prom was good too! :D
it's unstoppable! hahas.
well, and thanks bro, colin for fetching me home
after the movie. (:
thanks everyone who turned up & took pictures
with me... ): i still missed out alot though!
alright, cya next time!
thank u all so much for the wonderful time!
.
LOVE U ALL! :D

2010-11-16T03:52:00.003+08:00

HEY YOU!

Open your eyes and read this...

continue to LIE, and continue to LEAVE ME OUT.

this is seriously getting on my NERVES okaye?

u dun understand how i feel,

I DONT FUCKING CARE.

anyways, i dont intend on hanging with u guys anymore.

BYE, since u dont like me around u.

FYI: it's more than one, it's all 9 of you.

Thanks for leaving me out.

2010-11-13T16:15:00.002+08:00

HEY PEOPLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

the o's are officially over,

and holidays starts at the second it

hits 3.30pm ytd!

well, ytd was a FUN-FILLED DAY,

especially with bbq, and stayover at alex's!

it was soooooooooooooo GREAT and AWESOME!

^^ hahaha~ really enjoyed it lor~

OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG!!!

hahahahahas, anyways, here's what happened:

after being freed from 'HELL',

everyone rushed home, got changed and fly come out

again to meet at amk,

well the first group arrived and we left for alex's house,

not knowing exactly where it was.

suprisingly, we were the earliest! ^^ hahahaha~

and then slowly, people started pouring in!

then alex's bro, cedrick came home,

and IMMEDIATELY started bbqing food while

jill, joling, joyce and i sat outside and waited,

and the others were inside larh! LOL

then joyce so called 'betrayed' us & went in too

so, we ate while we accompanied him though we

dont really know him larh! lols.

then the food came and everyone was out and eating,

passing food around, taking pictures,

SCREAMING and obviously enjoying.

the food was 100% cooked and good. xD

then it went on until dunno wad time,

and cedrick kept cooking and cooking. LOL.

then we thank him and well, some started leaving...

until there was like only.. maybe 10+?

and the trios, joling, jill and myself,

went upstairs to bathe and alll,

cause i had a headache and i wanted to sleep.

okaye, INITIALLY i wanted to maple.

but it kept dcing, so ya! LOL! gave up!

then bathe alrdy i tried sleeping but it was kinda

pointless because there were people walking in and out,

knocking on the door and all,

so i decided to head downwards for....

MAJONG! xD hahahahahahahahahaha.

then i assisted tian ci, and he won like 3 times in the row,

then thiam gave up and let the sit to me and well,

that's when the torning started. xD

dunno why, but i was damn freaking high,

like laughed like a mad hyenah for maybe 2~3 hours.

then we got sick of majong and started playing this

card game, Jackass. omg so freaking high and damn funny!

xD seriously lor! funny thing, is that the ppl playing were,

cedrick, joling, jill and myself.

so we were kinda too loud like always. xD

screaming like mad until we realised it was damn late.

then alex's father came down to take a peak @ us. xD

then he was abit shocked at how he could still hear

us when we're a floor below, double doors and air-conditioned!

xD hahaha. lols. then ya, the guys who claimed they wanted to sleep,

was also laughing and screaming. LOL!

so ya, it went on until like around 5 in the morning with another game, idiot.

after tianci joined us at around 2~3am i think. LOL.

he reeks of alcohol before so he went to bathed!

then we decided to go out and walk around.

so in the end, we went to ntuc, bought 2 cans of campbell,

and headed back, cause i was too freaking hungry,

and the damn macdonalds' wasnt open!!!

and the two gentlemen cooked for us and sat down to drink

while we talked. after that, we continued playing until 7.30

and finally gave up trying to stay awake.

then we went up and 'woke' the guys up.

;x sorry, then we took our stuff and left,

along with most of them. xD hahahahahaha.

so it was actually damn high and fun! xD

so oh well, im glad i stayed and im glad my mood was

at its peak! xD hahahaha.

i think it can really last me for a very long time. LOL

actually i wanted to sleep then go home,

but jill and joling also wanna go home,

so ya. xD just went home lor~ lols.

it's not nice when im the only girl marh. LOL.

then for me, after alighting at amk,

i went straight to mac to tabao my breakfast,

then actually i wanted to take cab,

but the queue started to lengthened. LOL!

so i just took the mrt and walked home,

pressed the door bell, ate my mac, bathed and died

until 3 plus. LOL!

slept for 6 hours so i feel that it should be enough until

at night before dying again. xD

and my mum was like pampering me by drying my hair

for me after bathing. xD (:

cause i was so tired, i didnt bothered drying my hair. xD

she's just so cute larh! hahahahaha!

cause maybe i was abit high at that time cause i was too tired,

i told her how i spent the night and well,

really enjoyed it. xD

so, that marks the start of the holidays for me!

:DD definitely want more stayovers man!

maybe next week i'll go over to bf's! xD

hahahaha. i cant not stay over man!

his house is the most comfortable house to be in

for a stayover because....

1. he's treating me like im some lazy pig

and bring me anything. xD

2. so familiar with the environment! (of course larh!)

3. we've got weird cravings and might have a chance

of calling mac in the middle of the night

4. his bro and he will keep me awake for poker!

5. we will hardly sleep because we still talk alot!

6. got him marh! xD of course must stay larh! xD

aiya, but the only thing is that sometimes his mama

will make me sleep alone. xD so ya!

hehehehehe! (:

and he's coming over now!!!!!!!!!!!! xD

ahh, dont i just love my bf? :B

yes i do! xD hahahaha~

aiya i think this post abit stupid and lame larh,

but hahahahahaha, i just felt i should

blog cause it looked kinda dead,

and i KNOW i wont blog any sooner.

anyways, im occupying myself with korean dramas

lately; personal taste and boys over flowers. xD

so ya. (: hehehe, i shall go watch it after colouring.

omg, this is so damn long!

oh ya, i didnt have pictures this while

cause my camera phone spoiled,

and the camera in current phone isnt working.

so sorry for the boring plain words and lame stories.

but somehow i felt it was really worth the 4 years

digging the grave and striving damn hard for this.

thank you whoever who never gave up on me,

believed in me, and kept me going. (:

to my friends for the happiness, family for the support,

boyfriend for the love and class for the craziness.

(: thank u all so much! ^^

(: alright,

love u people! ;D

but i love 4e2 more! :B

cya!

2010-11-03T15:52:00.002+08:00

hellos people~

suddenly alot of random people dropped by but,

oh well, (:
hoped u guys enjoy reading. LOL.

okaye, so im back here with rainbow words.

(it's a signal that im not depressed or sad)

but ya.

okaye!

so mainly, all the majors are over...

no wait.

not all yet. xD

still left with ss, mother tongue and sci mcq. :B
but ya, i now have a sort of,

around 5-day break before the next paper.

(: so i have plenty of time to prepare for ss,

but i doubt i'll be using it.

i guess im only studying Venice and,

uh, i dunno if im not lazy,

maybe the other three chapters teacher picked.

but ya, disclaimer i know!

just pray lor. ;x lol

anyways,

well, this week im busy,

so it means that i'll be left with no enough time AGAIN

to prepare my ss. ):
sucks.

and i've fallen ill on saturday with fever,

i havent fully recover since;

still have abit of flu,

and it's like, never gonna go away and

always making me feel extremely thirsty

even when i just drank a cup of water. ):

so ya,

and i havent been seeing dear alot lately. ):

missed him badly.

i last time i saw him was on sunday,

but it was only for half a day.

PLUS! we havent been going out often. ):

exam exam exam and studies. );

sucks to the core.

anyways,

i had this very funny and weird dream earlier.

i dreamt that we were on our way to vacation ;

malaysia, just the two of us,

and we drop by at daiso.

fantasically, dear drove an SUV!!!!

and uh, our car was actually parked in daiso.

then i wanted to look for contact lens but ended up

at the make-up section,

then i was looking for

liquid eyeliner and eye shadow,

(maybe because i havent bought it for prom)

and i dunno why,

nail polish.

so i basically took everything i wanted and

went on looking for my blue, brown and

i rmbed i was wondering,

''contact lens also $2 meh?!"
(cause it's daiso)
so ya,

then suddenly my mum appeared,

and i brought her to the Ferrari store

i once dreamt before.

so there was the familiar scene of the

hot pink ferrari with heels.

ya, i also dunno why got heels.

but yeah, i wanted it so badly,

it was the only one in the world.

then i was looking at it, and well,

my eyes were glistering then

im not sure whether it's boyfriend

or my dad, but he said,

"if u want it, i'll get it for u"
OMG then i looked back and smiled,

but i left for daiso.

lols, then bought my stuff,

(no contact lens)

and left on my road trip with boyfriend to

malaysia~ xD hehehehehe~

okaye.

today's post is sooooooooooooooooooo long.

so i guess im gonna take a very very long time TT

colouring them. xD

okaye!

all the best for the remaining papers!

cya~ (:

2010-10-28T20:52:00.003+08:00

Call me UNREASONABLE.

i dont fucking care.

cause u dont understand wad i am in now,

nor do you care.

what i want was never in ur concern.

2010-10-24T21:50:00.002+08:00

I have always dream of living my life with you.

about the future, whether it's there for us or not.

I have always told myself u are the one.

I have always let myself be me in front of u.

I have always thought everything about u was perfect.

I have always wanted to never be away from u.

never to leave you alone,

never to let u hold the burden yourself,

never to let u give up on yourself,

never to let u suffer alone,

never to make u do what u didnt want,

never to force u to do something,

never to forget u,

never to let u go.

But all the little happenings have made it really

hard for me to hold onto my words.

sometimes i'll think that letting u go would be better.

For u to discover more,

to experience more,

to be happier,

to be free,

more over, to let other people have a chance to feel how u are

when u're with me.

It's like, what they always say,

let u go to let you love more...

But i dont want to.

'Cause im selfish.

'cause i know that no one has ever

loved me more than u, (besides my family)
no one has ever cried for me.

No one has ever been better than u towards me.

I appreciate that a lot.

I told myself to treasure everything & every moment

when im with you.

I do.

I really do.

But i dont really know if u too.

I assured myself that u do,

but i dont really know if it's true.

I assured myself that u'd never change,

but i dont know if u ever did.

I assured myself that your love will never change,

but i dont know if it will.

cause time has passed,

and people change.

I never make too many promises,

cause i hated empty promise.

I didnt want u to do the same,

because i knew it would hurt me if u dont.

Now, im at a loss,
and im waiting for u to find me again.

'Cause im really hurt,

and im on the verge.

So please, come and pick me up again like you always do.

'Cause i dont know who or what i am without you.

I love you.

Dear, i really hope you would.
i really hope u would.

i really hope u did.

i really hope u never changed.

i really hope u'll understand.

i really hope u will read this and reach out to me.

cause i need u so so badly.

2010-10-10T15:01:00.002+08:00

Hi people~

(: yes, it has indeed been a very long time.

(: hahas,

do not worry my followmen,

qinnie and i are fine and strong,

just that there are always

some big & small obstacles that could

probably and always lead to almost

breaking up but did not.

well, i guess he and i are just holding so tight.

(: we love us. xD thank you dear!

anyways,

since today is 101010,

might as well take a break from studying and blog

for a while. (:

actually my meaning of 'a while' stretches

from 1 minute to the entire day.

so please dont believe me.

anyways, these few weeks have been

ups and downs for me,

prelims are fine,

friendships are well, i would say it's fine now.

troubles are resloved

and grudges for forgotten.

i'd always tell myself not to bear grudges

or my life would always be so sad and depressing.

(: it's true, it's very very true.

anyways, here are some of the happy things about me!

1) i have found and bought my Prom dress. (:

you can say i really really liked it,

and it's under alteration.

will be done in around 1 week's time. (:
2) i have found the heels to match my dress... BUT!
i guess it would only match my prom dress and nothing else.

3) i just been to a family gathering and realised actually everyone

there misses me as much. (: and many couldnt recognaise me.

but oh well, i had loads of fun and would definitely be there again.

(: well, these few things are already enough

to make me go happy and yaya

but there's also a whole load of worries,

okaye, i admit it, i AM very PARANOID!

1) i am afraid my makeup and hair dresser would

screw me up on prom night

2)i am afraid of not keeping my words and not work

after o levels.

3)i am owing loads of money to boyfriend and am afraid

of owing more and not returning.

4) i am afraid of spending all my money once i get my pay

5) i am afraid of not giving my all for o levels

due to good results from prelims.

OKAYE! THAT'S IT!

THE LAST ONE STRUCKED ME HARD ON MY HEAD

TO STOP USING THE COMP AND STUDY!!!

so bye people! (: will miss u!

IM GONNA MIA!

2010-09-25T05:05:00.002+08:00

listen, put yourself into my shoes first.
before u say anything else.
if this might end us then so be it.
it's just asking too much of me.
i cant compromised something i already
know is a losing battle.
i just simply cant.

2010-08-28T01:05:00.002+08:00

think momma has mood swings lately~

lol. the usual. (:

anyways, this week has been GREAT!

;D cause i kept my mood up,

and... i volunteer to help with

teacher's day! (:

well, i have no idea either, ichy hands. :B

LOL.

help people lor, since i dunno how to study for practical.

anyways, it has been EPIC.

because i just entertained myself

by taking epic faces of mine and posting it on FB.

well, dear's at work and im bored.

so might as well self-entertain. (:

hahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!

just hope i dont screw the photo frame design for ms chye. (:

tomorrow i'll get the stuff, present and uh, design?

and dear boyfriend is as usual, rewarding me with movie.

;D hahas, gotta keep that up after 1yr 5months!

anyways...

happy advance 18 months dear! (:

thank you for being the greatest source

of support, encouragement and love. (:

i couldnt thank enough. xD

and the days u had swollen lips was dreadful to me.

xD u should know why. hahaha!

(: alright alright. (:

that's all im gonna blog for today. (:

time to go MIA, cause prelims is here,

and i havent started studying ; great.

== alright, (:

SAYOOOONARA~